Saturday, August 22, 2009

Day 6 working through PTSD

I have made it 6 days now I have to say today was a little easier. Like I said some thing is starting to shift and I hope it continues, I slept again last night 2 nights in a row what a miracle that is. I made dinner tonight all do french dip roast beef sandwiches and a cake for desert. I even manged to go to the store, and read some things on the computer. I got out of bed and have not been back to lay down all day. I found the Joy in my husband loving the fact he is getting a hot home made dinner every night. I found a little energy to even iron his work shirts did I find joy in ironing funny thing is I did. because it makes him look and feel good which in return made me feel good. All so I found a card by the coffee pot this morning for me from my husband telling me what a good job I am doing. do I feel perfect no not by far but will I YES YES I WILL and I never thought I would say that. I am hoping to get a good nights sleep tonight to tomorrow I can go and pick up my 10 month old grandson and watch him for a while to see what I can learn from him again or just to watch him smile because he learned some thing new how can you not find Joy in that.