Sunday, September 13, 2009

DAY 18 WORKING THROUGH PTSD..

Well for dinner tonight some thing special, big Mac's and Fry's.. OK I hear ya that's not home made but I did take it out of the bag and out of the box's and put them on plates and sat the table like I had made dinner. and we pretended I did. I don't feel very well today and my husband took pity on me and brought home dinner. am I getting better I think so I think to say this will only take 21 days was a little to short at first it sounded like a long time but right now I am not so sure, I did have a few set backs my mother died and the kids and there kids moved back home so I didn't get the time I needed so I am going to stay with this any way. wow I guess I have learned some thing some thing happens its a set back not an OH MY GOD LAY DOWN AND DIE. Did I find my Joy today yes my daughter in law has been wanting the baby who is now 11 months to say mamamamam but of course he says da da da da but today he did it. I laughed so hard I thought I was going to pee my self. He said mamamam all right but his tounge was hanging out and off the side and he crossed his eyes. Oh my God I am laughing thinking about that awfull face he was making as he was saying mamamama My daughter in law just hung her head and said why is he making that face saying mamam she now wants him to say da da da